Hello njchoppers
You are in the right place as Marcus has stated. Everyone has different reasons and motivations to quit gambling but all of us have to do pretty much the same thing every day in order to continue to be free of the addiction. One of those things, is definitely putting gamban on all your devices. That app has saved me multiple times over the last few weeks. Another one of those things for success is to be honest with those you love. You, nor anyone else, can live with that regret and coming clean will help you in your recovery. You cannot control how your significant other reacts or takes your gambling set back. You can only control yourself and your choices. I really understand coming clean is very scary because you hurt someone you love; but that is what our addiction does. It takes complete control of our lives and really creates a demon inside of us. A demon that only cares about being selfish by getting our daily fix.
Another huge step to this process is making that commitment daily. No matter what happens today, today will be a success for all of us if we just refrain from gambling. Take it one day at a time and before you know it, those days add up! Come here and rant often. I do it, every day and it helps. I also reach out to others to support them as well; and that again, helps me an strengths my resolve to quit.
In terms of your finances. I think all of us are in bad shape when it comes to our money because we have all lost more than we won. I tell myself this, the day I quit gambling is the worst my finances will ever be. Yes I will have life happens that pop up from time to time to set me back but the constant deposits into my gambling account just kept me broke. Every day, every month, every year. Basically its only up from here. Our finances will gradually get under control over time but ONLY if we stop gambling. 🙂
I’m really glad you are here. Stay strong! Our lives are not better with gambling. Lets make the most of today!