Thanks for stopping in Marcus. I am trying to stay as positive possible with this lifestyle change. I know it will not be easy, because just yesterday I had a few hours where i was really disappointed in myself. My family should be so much better off than we are and it’s a direct result of my gambling addiction. Instead of saving/building for a house, I blew all the money on sports betting; so everyone suffers because of my selfish addiction. Its a tough pill to swallow. This hasn’t been an issue for a few years, its been over 10 and a REAL BIG issue the last 7 years. Costing my family thousands. While the money is obviously an issue, the time that I can’t get back is another. Let me say it like this, my oldest daughter is almost 17 and going into her senior year. We have pretty much lived in an apartment or rented houses her entire life. I wanted to be able to have a house for our family by the time she went away to college. I wanted that for us; I would have had that for us if I wasn’t blowing my entire paycheck (EVERY WEEK) on gambling. Instead, she will leave our nest without ever living in a house that is ours because I’m so far behind on my finances, it will take the better part of a year to get back on track. That is a huge regret of mine and because of time; I can’t simply make it right because next year at this time she will be gone.
I’m a firm believer that tough times help build internal strength that allows for us to grow as people. I know I will be a better man for this and it will help me with my quit; but it impacted my daughter (and she doesn’t know of my addiction) in the process and that’s not fair to her!
Those type of thoughts are hard but our past does not have to impact our future or our RIGHT NOW! Tomorrow will be better because of the decisions I make today. That is not just true of me but true of us all as well. I really thank you all for reading my post and I hope happiness finds you all today.
Be well and most importantly be free of gambling!
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