Good morning all.
The last few days have been really hectic. I’ve been trying to stay as busy as possible to keep my mind off gambling, but also to help with continuing to live a different lifestyle. One that is more productive and meaningful. I’ve had to make a lot of phone calls, send a lot of emails to try to juggle my bills because they are extremely high due to my gambling. It hit me last night, after I was able to make some changes in bill payments to accommodate my income at the moment; it hit me, I just got one company to help me, now there is a pile of others that I need to change as well. Add all that in with having to repay a lot of people. Its just a lot and it really made me feel quite ashamed I allowed my life to get so bad off financially. I’ve been trying to look at the positive side of things so I did tell myself that after 15 years of abusing my money, I could be much worse off and to expect anything different than a struggle would be unrealistic on my end. Today will make 1 week of being free of gambling. I will take it one day at a time! Have a great day all!