Hi, Velvet.
Thank you so much for the kind words and support. This has been really hard for me. I finally fessed up and admitted my addiction and problem with some loved ones, some found out on their own. I realized through this that the ones that love me truly, they have been nothing but supportive with me, asking how they can help, even offering to go to counseling with me. The others have taken it almost personal, like I was intentionally trying to hurt or harm them, when that is really further from the truth. I am the one that takes this burden on, I am the one that suffers, and I am by no means pointing fingers or trying to play victim, this is the reality of what this situation is.
I have to learn how to manage stress better, than trying to find an outlet like gambling. I do have my first therapy session today which I am actually pretty excited about and in a way, relieved. Admitting my problem has in a way – freed me from the grips of the evil of gambling.
Your words have made me feel like I have more support, and that really does mean the world to me. The times when I thought I could never start a road to recovery for this because I was so embarrassed to ask for help or admit my mistakes, I realize my fears of admitting my addiction weren’t realistic.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart