Day 24
Positive spins on the negatives!
Still feeling bad really, or really bad more like. But I can put positive spin on this by thinking about the fact that I can see a pathway away from gambling. Gamban, attending meetings (on here, GA), keeping up with and developing other interests. Maintaining and developing relationships with others.
But the thoughts of my mistakes consume me sometimes. However I need to flick a switch straightaway to turn these thoughts off. I just can’t change what has happened, it’s in the past. I can change my actions, my life in the future by staying away from gambling.
The path away is long and hard. Howewer I need to just focus on one step at a time and not be distracted. I can get to a better place.
Things are going to be tight financially for a good while. However I can have more time for other things (away from the thoughts and actions of gambling). More feelings of self worth. Be more frugal and inventive with the money I do have.
Why could I have not done this before? Without the hurt I feel now? Because I needed a real kick in the ass to get going.
Until day 31.
Good luck and all the best to anyone who might read my post. Maybe add your thoughts to this thread and we can walk that pathway out of here together.
