[marcusmaximus]

Day 5
Wages still in my account. Have kept myself busy and have no urge to try and gamble still.
I’m thinking I am going to carry a scar from gambling exploits for ever, but I am hoping in time I can consider that scar as something to remind me of the harm gambling can do and how I am not going to go through that pain again.
Real tough to manage regrets, what ifs, however nothing can be changed now. It could be even worse, so trying to focus on the things that I do have.
Thinking I am not going to post for a few days. I am going to try and occupy myself in other things.
Thoughts can be all consuming sometimes. Gambling ups and downs have basically consumed me for the last 6 months. I need to try and clear the fog in my head.