[Dark Energy]

hi risingphoenix
thank you for your support, giving up means suicide and I refuse to lose my life because of this addiction, it took everything from me except my life and I am not gonna let him take it. so I have to keep fighting even if I didn’t win at least I will keep trying.

today is Day#21
this afternoon my I had a few hours where I felt really normal again, with peace of mind, focused at work, and no unknown stress or tension. it seems 3 weeks is really what it needs to get out of the relapse withdrawal symptoms. I know our mood is a changeable thing and any small thing could ruin it, I hope I can maintain at least a few hours every day in this state of mind.