[risingphoenix]

Day 337

Lot of introspection over the last few weeks to try and find the root cause of my gambling troubles. Not sure why I started thinking about this now, but my mind has been troubled thinking about this over the last two/three weeks. I am staying gamble free but I have started looking more into my deep seated thoughts.

Why did I become like I had become?
What made me go down this route?
Was there some repressed feeling?
Was there something absurd I was chasing?
Was I angry, sad or depressed about something?
Was I just greedy?
What was I seeking?
Maybe did I actually just become addicted to losing? 😳

I hope to get to the bottom of this someday. I will continue to remain gamble free and build back my life