Thankyou for your kind words AJ congratulations on your clean time and DE thankyou.
Today was a rough one my uncle whom I looked after for years past away. He helped raise me after my mom died and in his later years became bed ridden with dementia. I sent him into a carehome in 2020 when I became to overly burned out from the caregiving. I did all the necessary things to not run out and pick up or buy smokes or do anything addiction wise. Gambling didnt even cross my mind but cigarettes did which i havent smoked in years. I went straight to my sponsors she’s a medicine women( first nations) which is my cultural upbringing and spiritual practices so she helped use spirtual medicines to get me ready for grieving. I called as many people as i could to keep my head from spiraling out of control and luckily had already had my counseling appointment booked. So I went to him and was able to let out my emotional pain right away. I refuse to let my grief take me out. My uncle was my last ” safe” person even in his state. So I’m gonna have a rough grief period ahead but I’m holding my supports close and not putting myself into shut down mode from people. I’m good at letting people take advantage of me when I’m in these vulnerable places so I have to keep my strength up so I dont attract sick people right now into my life. So I need to stay on the ball with my recovery in every way possible right now.
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