Day#31,
1287 days left to reach a normal life, it is not like I am holding everything till I reach that mark, but it realistic estimation of the period that I need to recover financially, and in parallel, it is enough time to recover in every aspect of my life, it is a realistic time to rebuild my self after all these years of destruction.
@Gustave,
thank you, I am sure you will cross this 1 month’s target and much more, you did a step that I didn’t dare to take yet, which is being open about your addiction to your girlfriend, this is a huge factor for successful recovery.
@ raisingphonix,
man you are an inspiration for me, it is really important to me to see the posts of those who made it to long recovery periods. and the posts of those who relapsed including my own relapses.
when I read your post I can see what 280+ days of recovery look like, and the posts of Kammeer show me what 2.7 years of recovery will do, it is a real example of what I am looking to achieve.
regarding the numbers and logs, I have a bachelor of engineering and I am working as a project manager, so my work includes a lot of planning and schedules and monitoring the work progress. so I am taking the same approach to my personal life.
I am taking this recovery as a project, the estimated project duration is 1318 days, I need to achieve a lot within this period, really I don’t have a plan yet for each aspect of my life it is a big mess, I have a plan for staying GF, a plan for the financial part and for the physical helth\ weight loss part. it is a good start but I need to add a lot of sub plans and logs to the other issues in my life it is a total mess as of now.
some times I am feeling stuck and depressed, but taking one issue at a time and planning my way out of it gives me some relief.
one more thing, I have divided my life goals into 3 levels.
level#1: it is staying free of gambling. because this is the base that if I relapse everything will collapse.
level#2: is to live a normal life. to clear all the mess that I am in right now.
level#3: to excel in life, to achieve some of my dreams.
for normal people, level#3 is their level one, but for us, we have two levels to build first before we start working on this level.