Hi Kamirr,
you actually summarized what is gambling all about in this statement “we were searching for things in the wrong place.”
I was searching for a solution to my financial issues in the wrong place, there are a lot of options around us, options that will give us satisfaction and a sense of accomplishment.
you wrote, “We all are here for MONEY no matter what we say we are here to win back, I realized the hard way what is the point you have a million dollars when your mental health is fucked.”
this reminds me of a thought that comes to me 1.5 months ago after I bought a lottery ticket. “i am not addicted to this kind of thing”, but the story is for a while I thought how wonderful it will be if i won. then, I really got this feeling even if I win it will not satisfy me, I will not have the feeling of accomplishment. I will be ashamed to tell my story if it ended like that (a gambling addict who ruined his life, then he won the lottery and turned everything over) . between us, I will be happy to be that winner but will be happier to be the gambler addict who recovers the hard way, the one who recovered mentally and financially gradually I guess such slow recovery will last long, compared with the overnight recovery, even I can bet if I won a million $ I will lose it the same way because I am not ready yet. and we all have stories about families who bailed out their loved ones financially just for them to lose it all again.
finally thank you Kamirr for your post and your support, I am in this forum for 3 years, and a few members had overcome this addiction, and normally after crossing the 1st year free of gambling we never hear from them, I used to think let me write a post for them to see where they are in their life, it will be a motivation for me to see how they become after such a long period of abstinence, but then I told my self don’t be selfish they overcome this addiction and maybe gambling now is something from the past so don’t remind them with this painful past.
I really appreciate your posts that come from someone who overcome his addiction and stayed gambling-free for 2.7 years.
today is Day#25, I really feel this time is different and I really believe I will overcome this addiction this time.
I know I said it many times before, and I end up relapsing. but there will be one time when this statement will be correct and I hope that that time is today.