[Losingitslowly]

I have always been a person grateful for what I have and I have fought hard for it all. I am a person who likes to see results quickly, like when growing seedlings, I want to see the sprouts right away to feel the joy that comes with success. I know that I must be more patient to see the results of gambling both personally and financially, but I want to have the feeling of vulnerability that goes with living on the edge of disaster gone. I want to be happy and to work on more than just existing without addiction. I am trying, as we all are, and today I am one day closer to one month gamble free than I was yesterday. Of that I am most thankful.