After this weekend I will be officially gambling free for 1 week! Nice achievement, the first days and first week are always crucial! It was a bit emotional week, at moments I was feeling tired, sleepy, lethargic, unmotivated, sad. I’d call this post-gambling depression. Managed to remain stable and not to use gambling as the promised cure by the devil. Instead I withdrew the money that I had on my card, put them in my pocket so there is no chance that I can gamble online. Gonna do the same with next paycheck.
The battle is real but it’s not that agonizing because the darkest period is behind me. However, my brain still needs period of non-gambling in order to sort himself out and balance the chemicals. Just a little bit more and I know I’ll reach that point where there won’t be even a theoretical chance for relapse since I’ll be too strong to give in.