It always feels good in the beginning, counting the days and hours. After a few short days I find that novelty wears off..
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nI am re-evaluating my life. I am looking to what brings me joy. I find gambling brings a busyness to my mind and I am trying to find peace and calmness. That’s how I want to live my life and that’s the person I want to be.
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nI am searching for the old me. I feel a change is coming.
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nWhen I was younger, I would change my hair almost monthly. If I was having a bad day, I would spontaneously get my hair dyed purple and chop it all off. It invigorated me. It made me feel like a different person and gave me the courage and confidence to keep going with my life.
nIn the last few years, my life has remained mostly the same. The same cycle of gambling and lying and trying to stop and getting comfortable and gambling again and lying, etc. My job has been the same for years, my husband and I have been together for years, my HAIR has not changed in years..
nThese are my thoughts and I am rambling but I am starting to think that a huge change is in order, to give me the confidence and motivation to change.
nThe word change means to make or become different. We cannot do the same things and expect different results. We must do things differently if we want to see change.
