[Melpitt54]

Most of the time, I am broke. I live on next to nothing and/or credit. Two years ago I declared bankruptcy and believed that I would be able to ”start over”. I’ve gone down to zero debt at least twice, and then I work my way back up. This is all so crazy to me because I make a good salary, yet live like a pauper. I’m behind on my bills. Every two weeks I get paid, and I swear that I will not go to the casino. I believe that I will remember how desperate I felt for the past days, and if I can just not go near the casino I will be okay. I have tried to substitute other activities. Each and every payday, I talk myself into going. I tell myself that I will only spend a certain amount of money. Then I go back to the ATM until I take every extra dollar (and more) out. If I win, I stay until I lose. It is an emptiness that I cannot fill. I have tried local GA groups, but mostly cannot relate to the membership. Most of the group members are older men who have decades of clean time. They are mostly sports betters and I have heard the same stories over and over again. Other meetings have become social where they talk about what they had for dinner and who they talked to on the phone etc. I have also looked into ACA online groups. I relate to the concepts of these groups, as well as the readings. However, there are no solutions offered. I end up feeling helpless. I don’t have anyone I can go to to help stop me when I begin to rationalize a trip to the casino. Friends and family are busy with their own lives. They don’t understand why I don’t just stop. Last pay I was -$1600 before I started. I am paying huge amounts of money in overdraft fees etc. This all sounds crazy because in other areas of my life, I am reasonable. I do not understand why I am so drawn to the casino.

[Melpitt54]

Thanks for the advice

[charles]

Hi Melpitt, read teh otehr stories here, you will see the sort of things that have helped others stop gambling.

How about before next payday you get yourself banned from that casino? How about before next payday you make arrangements so that your wages go straight into a family members account?

Those are the sort of barriers that Jappy is talking about.

Don’t try to understand why you are drawn to the casino – it is an addiction, you have it, there may not even be a ”why”

Keep posting.

[Jonny123987]

Hi Melpitt, I hope you post agin on the site. I see a bunch of people who come on here. Post and then are gone. Don’t be one of those people. You seem smart. There is no one that will be able to stop you besides the person you see in the mirror everyday. You need to put barriers in place until you can take back over your finances. You can’t hold onto money for the time being. You need like 3-6 months not having any additional money. Do you have anyone that can help you with your finances?
Also – It seems a little like you’re saying that you can’t stop because you can’t relate to the help that’s out there. That’s the gambler talking. The gambler doesn’t want help. The gambler resists help… You are chasing the rush. Remember that. Not the money.

[Julkaisija]

Artikkelit