Autobiography of an addict in 5 short chapters

Chapter 1

I walk down the street,
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk,
I fall in.
I am lost
I am hopeless,
It take forever to find a way out.

Chapter 2

I walk down the same street ,
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk,
I pretend I dun see it,
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place.
But I believe it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.

Chapter 3

I walk down the same street ,
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk ,
I see it is there
I still fall in
it‘s a habit
I know where I am
It is my fault
I get out immediately

Chapter 4

I walk down the same street ,
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk ,
I walk around it

Chapter 5

I walk down another street.
Where are you now?

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Hello DB and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

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HI DB,

Have you been reading the other stories here? You will see a lot similar to your own, you will also see the success stories – what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation?

How about getting banned from that casino? If you have hurt your family then they will be pleased to see you taking positive actions to start dealing with the problem. Could one of them help you with accountability? Restrict your access to funds so that you can’t access them to gamble?

Keep posting here, if we could do it on our own then none of us would be here.

Firstly, well done deadboy16 for coming here. the first step is asking for help and by posing here you have done that. I am new here and have read countless stories and many of them have a lot in comment.

I like the road idea from the message above. We lean through addressing the problems, having a relapse and getting better. It’s about seeing warning signs and moving on, whether it is relapse or a triumphant moment where you resisted the urge.

I myself just relapsed after 66 days. Thought I had beaten it but it helped me understand a lot. It’s a problem for life. Whether we leave it for 20 years and have a bet in the future, it can come back.

Take every day one at a time. Be positive. Do your utmost to gamble. I’m more resilient than ever after my relapse, I’m keeping a journal as it will help me converse and chart my progress. It helps. Seek help, I saw a therapist. Was amazing and did help although not to the point of ultimate control.

Take care and keep posting!