It has been a while since i last posted thought i was cured i had a new laptop a month ago and a few weeks ago registered with an online gambling site Just to test myself.What a mistake before i realised i had registered with another.Just throwing all my savings to them just hoping to win big .Well now i realise i am not cured this addiction will always be with me just waiting for a chance to show its ugly head.2 weeks of deleting history off laptop in case my son just happened to take a look what i had been on whilst he was at work 2 weeks of pain inside eating at me for being so foolish 2 weeks throwing all my savings away.Was it worth it NO even now i have this thing in my head saying try another gambling site you might win jackpot and you will have savings again.I know i have learnt from this 2 week madness dont like feeling the way i feel at the moment feel so sick.I must get back on track and put it behind me and use all the tools to help me.Hope i can do it.No not hope i Will do it must think positive. lifes to short