I acknowledged late on Saturday night that I have a compulsion to gamble that I cannot control. I have been going to casinos for several years but was in denial about what impact that has on my life. I am 60 years old, live alone, have few close friends (who do not know about my gambling), and a family who lives far away from me. I go to the casinos often enough that I am greeted by name and they know I like extra sugar in my coffee. I get my warm fuzzies there, and that is going to have to change! I am embarrassed, humiliated, and desperate. I am standing at the edge of the abyss and I don’t want to fall in.Never live each day as if it is your last for it may not be.