Day 13 14 and 15 saturday morning here 910am off today woho haha. dont know if its a good idea ******** days or not im kinda doing it to make me post every day or nearly every day because if theres 1 thing iv learnt over the years is you cant beat this addictin on your own well i cant, i cant talk for anybody else. Mothers day tomorrow have to try and make it extra special for her she deserves it thankfully im able to get her a present . paying a mate 200 back out of the 500 i owe him dont like owing people money so adaat i want to clear my debts . Have to be patient on a lot of fronts not a cgs strong point but i want to change for the better in lots of ways and i also have to remember im not a bad person i never war and never could be yes im an addict and as a result i became very very sick i remember being described by a councilor that i was like a plant that was never watered or feed. its time i take care of myself im a big bhoy now i want to stop going down gambling blind alleys in some ways i think its a form of self harm and adaat i want to have a future and gambling cant be apart of it.
