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Counselling churns up a lot of emotions, 3Racer. You need to move slowly to avoid feeling overwhelmed.
I hear you on the money issue.
For me “gambling money” was totally separate from “everyday money”. In fact the G money was only ammunition to keep the wheels turning. Not money at all really. In recovery, you will learn to look at money differently. You will see it for what it is. You will learn to look on everything differently and will learn to see and accept the “real me”!