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Hello.
After a long year of the gambling roller coaster, I have found myself back at this site… in desperate need of help again. I am a complusive gambler. I have lied so many times that none of my family trusts me anymore. I haven’t actually had a debit or credit card in years. My husband wont let me even have $20. But I know why and I understand it, what I don’t understand how I can continue to ruin myself. I know the consequences of my actions, I know that the odds are against me, I know that my husband is about to leave me, I know that I am ruining everything. And still without a second thought, I gamble whenever I can. I have stolen or changed my husbands passwords/sercurity codes in order to access bank accounts. I borrowed over $10,000 last year from my grandfather. I have to stop! I don’t know how I can’t make such an easy choice-to not gamble. It is almost as some demon comes and takes over my body and makes me gamble. I am so in control of everyother aspect of my life, except gambling. I have not gambled since Christmas day. I am attending a GA meeting tomorrow. I just need to communicate with people who understand this fight, because no one around me does. Thanks for listening.

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