Eddie (not rabbit, of course), i am sorry I did not get my chance to meet you.  I am thinking it was my one shot and work got in the way.  Could get in the way again soon, my client with behaviors just got a medical diagnosis that is life threatening and I don’t know how she will react.  I hope not another 3,000 worth.  Our government is going to cut our programs again and how do you support someone with more ***** with less dollars (that’s my democratic side talking). Pawlenty is planning to run, I will not vote for him if it comes to that!!!! 
Anyway, I don’t know if I would have loved the rambling off topic, I never do well with that.  I supervise people and programs and need people to be quick and concise.   30 minutes to discuss something that has gone on just kills me.  I think, jesus, please shut up.  Get to the point.  I have other things to do.   I do understand the distance, and of course gas prices do not justify you going to Eagan.  So here is my thought:  we meet at some point or just don’t and wish each other well in our battle.  Your support on this site means the world to me so I am fine with just
Lynn, I have gone to one GA meeting and it was awful.  Not that anyone was awful, just how I felt about it.  I did not speak.  But with me it takes awhile to do that anyway.  I was very new in recovery and not even remotely ready to do that.  I did it to please someone else.  Never going to work unless you do something for yourself.   Can’t decide if I want to pursue GA or just try my damnest to do this on my own.  I am deliberately waiting until Fridays to even look at the site.  I am doing ok with that.   Even get some slack at home for needing to look on Fridays.  I guess by now I should have been "cured".   I hope things are going well with you and you are fighting the good fight. 
 
 

Thanks P, not sure that it is for me.  But really that’s ok too.   As long as I stay gamble free it doesn’t really matter how I get there.  That’s always my philosophy.  We all live very differnt lives and have very different life experiences, values, morals, beliefs, etc.  I don’t need to do "your" (not you, the universal you) recovery, I need to do mine.  And to be real honest,"you" need to "yours" (again universal you).   That’s what makes the world go round.  
So I am in my new home.  It’s been 3 weeks and I absolutely adore this house.  I love everything about it.  It still doesn’t feel like mine, but wow is it a fantastic home.  I bought this house on my own after a very nasty divorce and a rocky 2nd marriage. We have managed to stay together for 5 years after 3 separations.  Who knows when the next comes, but this is my home.  I will own it all on my own until I die.  Maybe that’s why I love it so much.  I did this all on my own.  Sometimes when people say you are strong willed or independent that can be an insult.  Right now I will say that is a compliment.  My kids have a place and they will never lose that.  Wow, I probably should not put this thought in cyber space.  But I will.  It’s mine and I earned it through the last 5 years.  Now, stay gamble free Lynnie.

I made a statement tonight in chat that struck me.  I guess I haven’t said it before.  Why I stopped gambling.  I wanted to stop hating myself.  Interesting thought for me.  To actually hate oneself.   Lot’s of damage you can cause yourself when you feel that way.  To love yourself, now I am not quite there.  Maybe I will never get there, but i will keep trying.  Hope you all do too.