was few weeks ago when i gambled last time , since then i feel worse then ever , i believed working will be a good recovery but still im not talking with nobody , not with my wife not with my new college , im not a very good company. im very irritable , i stopped to came to the support groups. im sad to give all my money to pay my loans. my wife probably will leave me , im sorry for my son , i have a really nice kid, blonde with brown eyes. i know it in this way will end all . im too sad now . imagine after 5k euro wage to be without money , and do not gambling them . and we are in 31. will be new loans , new interests, ….. i did my life in this way i support the consecuences . I can find an other girl in one day but nobody cannot give back my son . but why ? nobody cannot offer a normal life to me except my actual family. Plus the danish debt agency found me again to send to the court. So im on a straight line to arrive to the street . i must to learn to take drugs and drink alcohol, cause i dont use any of them . was to much to me .