[linda]

I have been thinking about killing myself a lot lately. I don’t want to – that’s why I’m here and not gone already. I’m scared though that I might just do it. I’ve been trying to stop gambling for years and years now. Ten plus maybe more. I have been a compulsive gambler for over 17 years. Been to ga for years, doctors, talked to gamcare, been on here in chat rooms, the forum, had lots of counselling and even been to rehab and yet I’m still gambling.
I want so much to be a good person and in my very heart I know I am one but yet I still do bad things and hurt people – against my own will.
This addiction is killing me.
I have lost so many people to it. My partner Molly who I love with all my heart and soul and my step son Rory. My son Josh too. The three people that matter to me most. And I don’t blame them at all. I have pushed them too far so they had to leave me and save themselves.
I would leave me too but someone has to stay otherwise I am no more. So I am here trying my best to save my life.

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